Walking Free Will Not Save Us, According To Reports....

 

They’re still at it.

Far be it from the likes of myself to question success, but my hat goes off to the inventive entrepreneur.

For twenty years or more, an outfit known as the American Foundation for Suicide Prevention has been soliciting for and collecting some handsome funds from the public at large.  It’s for an important and notably visceral and emotionally charged cause.

It’s a cause predicated upon something very intimate within any given self, often one very misguided and irrational.  And sometimes, despite any ethical stance, one quite well thought out and very disturbingly rational.

The taking of one’s life is one of multi-faceted reason and decision.  Irrational acts have certainly long been the stuff of impassioned, and maybe at times substance-influenced youth or adults. I don’t quite know if the leaders and officers of the American Foundation of Suicide Prevention are capable of recognizing that these Bible-old behaviors are not going to at any time soon be affected or re-directed by some organizational movement akin in image to a population of wide-eyed young folks all joined in hand on a sunny hilltop, chiming a musical hymn like a 1970 Coca-Cola ad with vocal backing by The New Seekers.  But that apparently didn’t deter a batch of suicide-affected young folks from banding together and forming a fund-raising organization designed to, in some way, shape or form “get the word out there”, and influence America at large to kick that dangerous suicidal impulse.  You know, the one that comes on when the girlfriend dumps you, or you decide at 3AM on a Saturday night when you can’t fit into those party jeans that you’re just never gonna lose that 25 pounds, or maybe you’re all of thirteen and perhaps much like Todd Solondz’ fatal hero Dawn Weinerdog in the acclaimed 1996 film Welcome To The Dollhouse, you’re arriving at the realization that you’ll never see any civil justice against the unfair bullying that’s slowly murdering you every single day in school, and the only logical move left would be to emerge dead at last.  It’s only understandable that people close to and bearing an affection for those they’ve lost under those circumstances may not have been able to resolve their pain, but are nonetheless, in Howard Beale Network fashion, just Mad as Hell, and are Not Gonna Take It Anymore.

That’s certainly enough to build a trending foundation upon:  Collective aggravation, and the determination to see better.  I wouldn’t mind a crime-free New York and violence-free America myself, one where rents freeze and all middle-agers can look forward to comfortable retirement unconditionally after fifty years of getting up, going to work and getting emotionally abused every single day of their lives.

Somehow though, I don’t think there’s a grownup around who doesn’t recognize, at least deniably, that the world doesn’t work that way. Almost any functioning human of some wisdom-endowed age will maintain some regimen of solemn and daily prayer in their lives, of some sort.  It may not change the world, but it certainly comforts the way the praying human sees it, and for that human, that’s literally all that matters. 

Prayer might correct some of the surrounding wrongs we have to rationalize our way through every single day, the way we didn’t really have to as children of vast question and inquiry. But movement-intensive organizations of people likely won’t affect that sort of change.  If you’re talking about something like New York’s Guardian Angels, who formed a youth army to work in tandem with law enforcement more or less, about fifty years ago, to combat crime in the subway, that’s an effective organized movement.  Citizens forming neighborhood clean-up groups to tidy up parks are a worthy cause, too.  What does an emotionally scarred body of people do as a unit to eradicate suicide..? 

Citizens have faced arrest from time to time when their outward suicidal efforts have threatened to harm or disturb the peace of others.  But often, the more intent efforts will involve perhaps a weapon or a drug-induced end on a very well-hidden, solitary level.  And there lies the eternal question:  would circumventing that person’s act in the moment have cured their intention forever..?  

Maybe it would, and maybe that’s kind of the problem.  Because whether anyone wants to accept this or not, to take one’s life may not in fact always be what might be termed ethically arguable.

There are good people in some extremely, dangerously untenable situations in their lives, that perhaps only monetary miracles could mitigate.  Controversial author Barbara Ehrenreich in her 2000 manifesto, Nickel and Dimed, outrightly admitted that perhaps a 1930s Great Depression wasn’t necessary for some U.S. residents in sheer destitution today to simply end their struggle logically with their own bodily final option.  Not all are willing and courageous enough to come to New York City and become full-time beggars and subway platform residents. 

Not everyone will recall one of the greatest personal substance addiction dramas of the 1900s, a TV production by David Wolper based on a Jack Weiner memoir, brought to life with painful acuity by actor Dick Van Dyke in 1974, a film called The Morning After.  It’s not a shining tale of redemption, but rather a realistic portrait of the suggestive fatalism of alcohol addiction.  The 1986 TV-movie Vital Signs featured Ed Asner in yet another realistic depiction of an aging and prominent surgeon, who succumbs to his dangerous alcoholic battle, one that threatens his son’s life and medical career, by ending his life, quietly and politely.  His passing is met very tacitly at his memorial by many.

The take-out package here is that the act of suicide, while denounced by that holy compass, The Bible, still remains a final option to many, and one that cannot be morally or ethically shelved on any generally acceptable terms unifiably.  Nonetheless, the movement is entirely understandable. In keeping with perhaps the holiest system in our nation, Under God, Invincible, to bring acceptability to the act of Self-Unaliving might actually bring harm or loss to so many of our economic structures, like realtors who need paying tenants.  Hospitals who need surviving patients.  Prisons that need prisoners to scale their federal and state funding, as well as juvenile detention centers and courthouses that couldn’t function without a requisite number of felons and offenders every day.  Are we really going to let the funeral directors walk off with the bulk of economic gain..?  Not by any moral design, if we can help it.

And thank goodness there’s an organization unafraid to step forward and help it, repugnance be damned.  They’re not going to do anything militant about their resolve, like march down the boulevard all day.  Instead, they’ll walk.  At night.  In group funded, logo-branded T-shirts to advertise their contribution-based movement.  But this isn’t some coin-in-the-can thing.  I stepped in on one of these AFSP overnight walk recruitment things way back when, in heightened curiosity.  I expected a few brochures and a pitch for maybe thirty bucks.  You had to sign a contract to commit to raising $1K personally, through ten $100.00 donations.  I thanked the Amway-reminiscent hosts with great awe, and resolved to help the suicide -affected in perhaps a similar, less costlier way.  I met up with a friend who’d lost a life-taken loved one not long prior.  She, myself and a friend of hers met up one evening for a nighttime stroll together.  A few hours of talk, tears and laughs.  I sprung for the coffee.   But we all made it home by midnight.   We had to work the next day, and we understood.  That resolving suicide won’t happen by walking, T-shirt wearing and raising or donating $1,000.00 to do so.  But by understanding, surviving, and living. 

-Noah F.

 

 

 

Health Ball

 

I’m no expert on baseball.  Really.  I know who Bob Murphy and Ralph Kiner were, but unlike a globe full of sports enthusiasts, I’m game illiterate.  However, there is one very basic principle about the cherished sport that I’ve learned only from the resigned disillusions of elders at the end of their worn-out theoritic conversations:  It’s not a game anymore.

That one returning truth is a disrespectful reality that will spray any enjoyable sports discussion to death on contact like Raid.  The best athletes, the most colorful managers, the greatest writers and broadcasters, none will dissolve the piercing reality it all seeks to blanket.  It may seek to entertain and engage, and it had better. But it’s certainly not an honest game, the organic creation it once was well more than a century ago.

Food in these United States is no different.  To hear the historians tell it, bread didn’t exactly begin as some synthetic biochemical sponge in a plastic bag, ingestion of which can lead almost immediately to various stomach and autoimmune conditions.  But there is in fact a reason the product today successfully exists in name as an almost entirely non-food-based product on every store shelf in the country.

The earliest television programs gracing the earliest wooden-housed tubes in the late 1940s in the U.S, mostly along the East Coast, where signals were very much alive, were the only offerings the founding communes could invent: Live, original dramatic creations, stage plays made exclusively for television.  Some of the greatest American 20^th century drama saw it’s premiere on those screens, and would be further immortalized in silver-screen adaptations.  Within a year or two however, as the medium advanced, along with audience size, the drama anthologies were eradicated and replaced by predictable little numbers, neatly timed and produced film productions on the Hollywood lots, action and adventure movies in convenient prime-time increment formats.  You wouldn’t hear the name Paddy Chaefsky again for twenty-five years, when he’d surface as the screenwriter for an acerbic satire called Network.

The string tying all these historic ornaments is the coaxial cable that binds our nation: The Industrial Complex.  And why should it begin and end with the arts..?  How about our health..?

Of course, to say that our personal health has been arbitrarily farmed out to profit-seeking industry is probably kind of hyperbole.  We generally in this day and age however tend to misuse the term “health” as an abbreviation for what we’ve been trained to rely upon in our modern culture, which is “health care”.

In itself, that’s a term too broad to instantly analyze, except to readily acknowledge the fact that we don’t own it.  It’s long been made clear to us American civilians that in no unconditional way are we ever to be in command of our personal and intimate health effectively, without the arbitrary aid of what we can now call the Health Care Industrial Complex. 

How long has this been going on..?  Well, let’s go back to early civilization and see if we can trace it.  The Greek societies of B.C, the ones we read about, but no one’s great grandparents were quite around to live in, were presumably not too unhealthy. People ate only sparingly, subsisted on what we now define as Mediterranean diets, little meat and plenty of Omega-3 based nuts and vegetables. Most every citizen was in a trade or applied skill of some sort and was actively building or creating every day, being physical and working up an appetite they had no time or willingness to sit down and merely feed.  Work and repetition-based inflammation and injury meant therapy and occasionally some medical advice from the trusted neighborhood sage, who likely maintained the plant-based tinctures and exercise directives necessary to get the injured up off the bench post-haste. 

Sure, when I was a kid, we had hospitals, and they were full of patients, my folks among them.  But it wasn’t until somewhere in the early 1990s that the essence of medications and illness talk moved from the bedsides of the elderly into the enchanted land of prime-time television continuity, full-time. That cherished landscape of cars, colas, shampoos and fragrances, models in jeans and frozen-food jingles were now invaded by scrolls of prescription fine-print and mysterious consonant-heavy medication names, with no definition on what they do, except that you should “ask your doctor”.

The iconic image of the American Male by the mid 90s was oddly no longer a slim-jeaned, forest-headed contemporary.  It was a crew-cut, balding, overweight chap visibly beyond his years, clad in loose khakis and a tent-size untucked plaid short-sleeved canvas top.  He would often be seen in print ads in a solitary tearfulness, the surrounding copy questioning if this is true sorrow, or a testosterone crisis..? This, by the dawn of the Millenium, was the all-new lasting paradigm.

What drove the creation..?  Supposedly an abundance of convenience foods had rendered a society too fat, electronic convenience leaving our constituency clinically unexercised, and a casino of mis-prescribed ask-your-doctor pharmaceutical panaceas autoimmune deficient.  But wherein was the benefit of this movement, was it in fact premeditated, and who actually made out like bandits..?

Whatever windfall came to the pharmas would ultimately lead to a run on the health care industry….hard.  Quiet voices would begin to remind us that our own precious health begins only with our own proactive awareness and practice.  Hospitals and M.D.s alike might stand by that philosophy, but they can’t enforce it.  They can only treat what’s put before them, and for that, the minibar gets rung up accordingly.

Enter the Health Care Crisis.  Unaffordable deductibles put to people whose wage job-provided packages are leaving them with less and less rent money in the bank each month. And those are the privileged ones. 

Of course, at a time like this, no one’s any different from anyone.  If you want to stay alive, health care coverage of any sort is a basic requirement, right..?  In order to beat the fierce demons our parents couldn’t slay, you need each and every annual test and exam, unconditionally.  We’re not living in the Dark Ages anymore.  This isn’t 1959.

What could possibly deter a health care subscriber, even one far behind the eight-ball of affordability, with an unapproachably high four-figure annual deductible, from indulging mightily in those preventative exams, that the insurance package gallantly covers at one-hundred per cent…?  A friend of mine shared with me her reluctance based upon one significant and immediate economic factor:  Were anything untoward to be discovered or arbitrarily acted upon as a result of said preventative, the coverage ends right then and there.  Let the out-of-pocked deductible begin.  She said it was just unaffordable right now.   Hence, prevention loses out to the economic caution of fear.

But at least however, she does have health care.  What would she do without it…? I never really questioned that postulate until I learned the stats on just how many middle-incomers in the cities have in recent years been all but forced to forgo health care coverage entirely, in the wake of Obamacare laws.  The very provision the old laws were meant to provide people with for their own good managed to fail and haywire into a movement eradicating that provision for many.  Many of these folks will manage to save a few bucks until of course something serious flares up, or an injury happens.  And when it does, the payout will probably amount to little more than the deductible costed to the friend of theirs with their job’s health plan. 

Hence, at the skyrocketing rates we’re seeing now, supposedly the result of laws, lobbies, corporate buyouts and payouts, political war games, malpractice suits, NASDAQ indexes, and people having to simply pay their rent and utilities (Food..? There’s plenty of banks around, and good neighbors never let their brethren and their children go hungry….it’s perhaps the last vestige of civilized society we know, and thank God for it..), perhaps this trendy, industrial product known as Health Care isn’t necessarily as critical to our lives as coffee or social media, and just may be on it’s way to becoming the bourgeois, boutique item the print and online ads make the providers out to be, handsome and attractive young practitioners beaming through their medical-blue scrubs, just waiting to caress your panicked arrythmia.  A return to the truly proactive society held by the primitive Greek cities may be our educated destination.  We might even get to the theater a little more often for some good entertainment.  And see a ball game.  The real kind.  Without analytics.  That’ll go back into the schools, where it belongs.

Noah F.